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Trying

Posted by cyangorilla - May 10th, 2022


Whatever you do, try.

Just don't be mediocre.


The spiral of the Void is formed by our reluctance to try. We empty ourselves into it while avoiding struggle. Death of our spirit follows, mediocrity ensues.


We take refuge in the Void formed of muffled voices all saying the same word, echoing and resonating within the empty hall between our ears. Its sound is deafening but also an oppressive silence that keeps us from moving. The world stops as our death approaches and the notion of speaking grows incomprehensible. We stare blankly into the Void waiting, yearning for an out. Everyone seems to be experiencing the same existential emptiness, most of them are enthralled by it, frantically looking for it to continue.


My eyes widen as whatever is forming in front of them gets closer until it fuses with myself and I see it while it inhabits my mind. It digs deeper than any thought I've ever conjured and unclogs my brain, every single idea that has been muted by the Void pouring out. The air cracks and breaks the silence as every sound hits me at the same time. I breathe out and fill my lungs with air for the first time in hours. I look around and the world is beautiful and filled to the brim with things to love.


The Void looms in the corner, waiting for me to forget how it feels when I let it into my life.


We give ourselves to the Entity of Trying so we may keep struggling.

Book of Nightmares, 1, 1


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amogus

Some good advice, thanks

Human Pain experienced in 5D. What rich and vivid Suffering you have. It will make for great writing.

I wish I had the strength to breathe out the Void that festers in my lungs too, but it's just so hard to, under so much pressure

You can do it!

What About What Yoda Says Do Or Do Not There Is No Try

sounds pretty but it's stupid

What if you're never capable of meeting people's expectations?

While it can be hard to do, I believe you should always assess if the expectations that have been thrust upon you are fair and relevant. If they aren't, I don't find them worthy of meeting. I think a good measure of 'fuck off' is healthy, especially if it's towards people who barely know you.